Tug-O-War Inside

There's a tug-o-war inside my head
My hopes pull right
My doubt pulls left
What will happen if the rope breaks?
Will it set me free
Or seal my fate?

The hands on the clock tick out of beat
I wonder if the springs are damaged
or simply trying to confuse time
Why? Is it Death you try to cheat?
Those lingering shadows that battle
Against the ceiling, walls, and floor
I'm sure if I watch closely
I'll see it seep into my pores

Maybe I'll light a candle tonight
So it can fill the room with red
The warmth may sooth my heart
But it will not cease the pain in my head
Should I swallow the flames?
Let its radiance fill me whole
Besides, burning from the inside out
Isn't that how Hell supposed to go? 

Am I slightly insane?
Such a ridiculous question
On a scale of life to death
My mind is beyond resurrection
I would call out for an angel
But I see how it works now
The doubt in my head is the shadows
And death watches from the crowd

I don't know if he means to save me
But I guess we'll discover soon
As I sit here twiddling my thumbs
On the top of the roof
The night is full if darkness
Killers seeking for pleasure and greed
Looks like I'll add to the number
So death please rescue me
Because the night is full of wonder
And I'm ready to explore
So give me a hand or a set of wings
For I can't take these thoughts anymore